I was in a really bad mood for like an hour today. I was feeling moody about relationships, etc. (I think that's the result of about four months of concentrated horniness).It pisses me off that people can just move the phuck on. Why can't I? I wish I could just resolve to be done with a dude, and leave it at that. Idk, but after wallowing in my bitterness for about an hour, I realized that I was pissed about being stood up by The Artist, so I decided to write an email to tell him about himself:
Hey [The Artist]
I saw that you contacted me the other day via gchat. I didn't feel like addressing you at that particular time because I felt really disrespected by the fact that we made tentative plans to see each other weeks in advance but when the projected date came and I called to confirm, you completely sent me off by not returning my phone call in a timely manner. Sending me a chat about something completely unrelated almost two weeks later with no apology or reference to the fact that you didn't return my call is just insulting.
I understand that you have other obligations, but it is very impolite to completely ignore the fact that I reached out to you. Even if you had replied via text or an email stating that your plans had changed, it would have been better than saying nothing at all.
Were this the first time this happened with you, I would not be addressing the issue. I understand that we are not together, nor am I under the impression that we are even working toward such a goal, but returning someone's efforts to communicate with you, regardless of how you feel about them, is common courtesy. It has been my desire to continue and possibly strengthen our friendship, but your actions have given me the impression that you do not want the same.
I'd be doing myself a disservice if I did not let you know that it's unacceptable to pop up by contacting me out of the blue and then disappear just as suddenly. It sends mixed signals and I'm left wondering how to proceed, not to mention, it's a huge waste of my time. So unless you tell me otherwise, I'm not reaching out to you anymore. If you feel that you can't correct this pattern that has unfortunately developed in the way you communicate with me, then I'd appreciate if you stopped contacting me altogether.
Take Care.
I sent this today at work around 2pm. I just went back to my email (it's about 8:15p) to copy and paste the letter for this post, and as I scrolled to the bottom, I saw that he had just responded. Guess what his response was?"Ok."
Seriously? "Ok."? He didn't even bother to spell out the whole word! That just proves my point. The very reason I didn't want to email him in the first place. That response reeked of the very same unaffected, IDGAF attitude that he has been displaying for the past several months.
At first I was like... Okay... what? Does that mean, okay, I'll stop contacting you. Could it possibly mean okay, I get it; I f-ed up, I'll try to be considerate as we continue interacting with eachother in the future. Or did it mean Okay, this bitch is crazy and I'm gonna send this simple ass response because at least I'll be responding to her crazy ass and not blowing her off like I've intentionally been doing.
I instantly started to regret sending the email. Now, I'm glad I sent it. That response shows that he really must not give a phuck, and that I've wasted a huge amount of time on this fool. At least I know he received it. The way I'm going to take that ambiguous "ok" is this:
I don't even feel like dealing with this. You said you won't contact me anymore, and I'm very okay with that. I don't care enough to apologize or explain myself or do anything to keep you in my life. Besides, this is much easier than me having to tell you that I'm just not that into you, so it is what it is.
Anyway, it might take me a while to finally get the courage to tell someone to treat me right or phuck off, but once I make that decision, I'm pretty good at sticking to it. Especially if the person has agreed to stop contacting me as I asked. So, now, though I might remember how things USED to be, I'm positive that they won't be the same way ever again. I should finally be able to move on! (Ummmm... yeah.... not as easy as it sounds, especially since I'm still dealing with the occasional hurt and thoughts of someone who publicly humiliated me and ended up in a lasting relationship with my nemesis.... One day I'll learn to get over people!)
My final analysis of the amiguous "ok." is most likely right. What do you think? It'd be interesting to know have a few guys' perspective on this.
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