I'm SOOO sensitive. IDK why I am. Maybe my past. Maybe how I grew up... During this year away from school, I hope to thicken my skin! I had a really bad day at work a couple weeks ago and that time they DID see me cry. (I wish I didn't cry when I am angry!)
But it's okay. I guess the tears affected them... We had a meeting about respect, and since then, everything's been PEACHY... Except for the small mistakes I keep making in some of my legal duties (sucky, b/c there's very little room for error in this profession). I'm learning a lot. Thank GOD for my job. Exactly what I prayed for and then some... He is SO amazing... All the little interpersonal struggles are teaching me not to take things personally, but I honestly love the intimate nature of my environment. I'm learning so much about not only my future profession, but about how to deal with different kinds of ppl, what makes them tick, and other things. White ppl are interesting... $400 on a "brazilian hair straightening" and a haircut... Girl... I could slap a perm in that is for $5... I wonder what it's gonna look like?
We drew grab bag names... I wonder what I'm gonna buy my person?
Birthday is 2 days away... They're gonna order me a cake at work! YAAAYYY... Yes, I'm a fat kid and yes, I love cake...
Postponing the b-day celebration to next wk... Reservations already made... 18 friends joining me on my outing (and maybe a couple more last-minute chicas who don't know if they'd be in town b/c the alma mater's homecoming is that wknd)
Repairing relationships... I have a tendency to be friends w/guys I used to talk to... But only if I didn't have strong feelings for them... If I did, that doesn't work out so well... Except in one case and he's definitely in jail now... Need 2 write him a letter. I miss him and we were getting really close before he went away :-(
Today, while half-gossipping, half-deciding the holiday schedule (PAID wk btwn Christmas and NY! Whoo-hooo... Wanted to go on a tropical trip but the special some1 I WANTED to go with suddenly seems quite a bit LESS special to me after this wknd...) with the paralegal and the office manager, (hereinafter, O.M.) one of the associates got yelled at by the partner. She yelled back a little, but then 1 of the founding partners rushed in and closed the door. They yelled a bit more, and then the associate went in her office and closed the door.
I was in the intern's office later when said associate came in to discuss a case with her... Associat'es face was all red and puffy... She'd been crying... This was SO interesting to me... At least she has an office with a DOOR to close after she gets screamed at. Shoot. I couldn't hold back my tears when asked what was wrong on my really bad day and I cried in front of one of the partners... No doors at the front desk...
I felt bad for her and was comforted knowing that they make mistakes, get yelled at, and they cry too!
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