Ugh!

I am THOROUGHLY disgusted with a certain person right now.

Seriously, refusal to text back or return phone calls really burns me up. I don't give a DAMN what you're going thru. That sounds insensitive. I mean to say, most people are not experiencing something that I consider extreme enough to make the decision to never respond to me. When ppl contact me that I really don't wanna talk 2 at the moment, I just shoot a text saying that I'm really busy, or goin thru some things and don't feel like talking. Why leave someone in the dark when its obvious they're reaching out to you? What a bastard move... Back to the whole B.S. thing I mentioned earlier, I wouldn't be callin your @$$ if I thought there were a reason that calling you should be unreciprocated for any reason. If I'm callin your @$$, it's because you left me with the impression that you wanted to ensue some sort of communication. I'm mainly talking about a male associate, though I still despise it when female friends do it too.

Seriously, we're all walking around with PDAs and/or some pretty advanced phones. Everyone has some form of access to the internet as well. This means that there is a pretty large list of ways to communicate with people. NOBODY is that busy.

Even when I call my male friend, who in most cases IS that busy, with all the events he has, and meetings he's in at any given moment, he'll at least call back a few days later. And of course I'm not gonna question what he's been up to, either. I may joke that I'm upset that I received no call/text back when I wanted it, but that is usually only when I wanted something somewhat important at that particular moment, and his call/text back arrived too late. At least he respects me enough to get back 2 in a timely manner! And weeks later when you randomly decide that there's something YOU want from ME is not a timeley manner. 3 days, a week, TOPS (for extreme cases) is about as long as I feel it should take.

I have a friend who owes me money... Her @$$ ain't answerin calls cuz she know she owe me, and I didn't even call her about the money! Then there's this other person, who I'm seriously never contacting again... I feel completely disrespected and outright disgusted at their refusal to return my communication.

When I look back at the friendships I've terminated this year, it's all been due to an outright REFUSAL to communicate with me about something I considered important. I'm realizing that's a major pet peeve of mine.

I do realize that I have not been 100% at communication in the past. I belive this is because I may have been confused about what I was trying to get across. If someone ever suggested that something was important, I'm pretty sure I've made sure to reciprocate their communication attempts.

So honestly, I don't even want to be bothered! I have random urges to call back to back at 3 am starting drama, (sigh... My mother's genes are so hard to suppress sometimes) or send an email alerting the person to the fact that I'm annoyed by their refusal to communicate. But then I realize there's no point to either! Why send an email that will probably also go unanswered? Just to get my point across? So what. If they cared about what I had to say, they woulda called my @$$ back in the 1st place!

A friend that I've been getting more and more cool with made a remark about leaving these 2008 niggas in 2008. And by niggas, I mean male and female, because although I dislike the usage of the word, there are some niggerish people of both sexes out here. I'm so serious about that.

Like, seriously, if you have brought me to the point where I'm praying for God to remove all feelings I ever had for you from my life, you're out. Don't bring your @$$ around trying to contact me in 2009 cuz you're bored, or because you suddenly realiz that you miss our friendship. These people have a one month window to correct their tomfoolery, because once the new year hits, if significant measures to prove that they are in this friendship for the BOTH of us are not taken, they're dead to me. If I answer my phone in 2009, it will be to tell they @$$ that I've written them off, and they don't have to worry about ever contacting me again.

Communication is so easy! So based on past scenarios where I've ended up with a broken heart, I choose to take all refusals to communicate effectively and equally as a "Phuck you. I don't care about you, and I'll only contact you when I want something from you or when I'm bored out of my mind and have exhausted all other options". I'm sorry. I won't be able to fill that position in anyone's life anymore. Kick rocks.